I'm
going to try to clarify a few things without resorting to My
usual
style which I admit fully is purposely focused on invoking a
hot/cold
reaction rather than specifically attempting to generate a
positive
reaction for conclusions I've reached concerning particulars
of the
table top RPG hobby and/or TFT. This isn't meant to
purposely upset
or offend anybody it's a result of Me trying to learn how to
write
and trying to develop the skin toughness required when
putting up
creative work to public scrutiny and opinion knowing the
impossibility of pleasing everybody with other details
associated
with the hot mess like feeling out other lines of approach
to
explaining concepts and what seems to generate interest and
entertains and yada yada.
It's
complicated stuff overall but not unfair to sum up by noting
that
writing is a subject I've always had particular challenges
with,
obviously, and I'm not only incompetent in this area by
nature I also
lack pretty much and formal education in the subject which
is not an
excuse for poor communication but rather something I offer
by way of
explaining why I might come across the way I do.
Colour
that with the fact that I tend to post as one off's typed in
thread
with no eye toward editing or rewriting as I've already got
an
overfilled plate of word-salad pages requiring such
treatment and I'm
often looking to get something down and out there and don't
really
care if it's got a few warts or flaws as personally
perfection has
always been a blocker preventing Me from getting much of
anything
done trying to hide the mistakes I'm going to make simply
from trying
to write it down in the first place. Again not trying to
justify My
stuff by stating this and there's no doubt that the fact
that I'm
plain weird as a human being factors heavily into this which
can be
fulled by My mental state which can get pretty out there
when I get
worn out and I ain't getting younger while the creative
process flows
just the same as when I was eight and social media postings
often
come as I'm trying to wind down from some project that took
a lot
outta Me making it far too easy for playful to get past the
filters I
keep intending to get to stop that kind of stuff.
As
if the fact that I lack the tool set to communicate
elegantly and
effectively weren't obstacle enough to what I'm hoping to
accomplish
the subject matter is in and of itself challenging as I'm
pushing for
some concepts that fly in the face of some of the axiomatic
foundations of the medium at least in the general popular
consensus
of “RPG” and even “game” to some extent as well as saddling
this with the “universal” system concept that takes a much
bigger
bite of issues than a narrower genera focus would do. I then
further
complicate the complicated mess with the inclusion of some
modern
technology as game-tools like virtual tables or the use of
smart
phones in play, 3d printing, play by e-mail and similar
avenues of
adding elements unavailable to play back in the day as well
as
salting the seeds I'm trying to sow a little more delaying
the day I
might actually reap a meatball or two if I ever untangle the
spaghetti of limp noodle logic from the meet of it all to
plant it
but one problem at a time is best I find when attempting to
progress
toward achieving disaster. Meaning even if I succeed in
getting
something objectively out there doesn't mean it succeeds by
virtue of
the fact but My focus isn't on success for the sake of
success so I
continue to bang My head against the brick wall barriers and
make an
@$$ of Myself in the process in service to what I'm
attempting to
create which is NOT intending to upset or offend any other
individual
intentionally or stir up controversy or divisiveness within
the
community or change “gaming” overall for the community as
practiced to suit My personal concepts and ideas. I simply
feel I
have something to offer by way of take it or leave it
additions to
what's currently accepted and even leaving all of it
mechanically
speaking it's still worth the effort in My estimation if
some
discussion results that helps refine a point or two in the
community
at large. Just because I may rub some the wrong way doesn't
mean I'm
doing so with intent and I am more than happy to take any
issues
anyone may have fielded to Me directly and see what can be
done to
address such concerns on My part. I'm actually more affected
by…
what at times comes across as… IDK “passive aggressive”
reactions that by pass Me completely rather than at least
allowing Me
the opportunity to take responsibility and what lessons I
can from it
all and offer what accountability I can if owed albeit a
public
apology which may not amount to much subjectively for some
but I
offer in the spirit of taking My lumps when I've earned them
and not
trying to avoid My mistakes. Ideally I'd be competent enough
as a
person to avoid @$$ whippings altogether but hoping doesn't
hide the
lack and while there may be no path to pleasing all parties
in every
situation it's usually still possible to find a way to agree
to
disagree civilly if an effort is made to try.
I'm
leaving this here and will address the actual system
mechanics I was
alluding to as apart from personal issues concerning the
source as
apparently that bit got missed in all of this and I think
it's an
interesting and informative idea for discussion purposes but
didn't
want to jump on “gm's call” as a springboard for what
amounts to
an argument against taking such a view in the consideration
of
numerical statistics as character trait description values
and how
such applies in game mechanics… not to mention wishes and
what
might be implied by how wishes are written up in the TFT
ruleset. I
wanted to take a different approach that avoided implying
“gm's
call” was incorrect or inferior to My view… maybe that part
of it
actually came out sortta like I hopped cause the rest of it
sure
surprised Me.
I
have to be crazy. It's the only thing to explain what I'm
doing.
Weeeeeeeee
I guess.